It's a trait about myself I don't much care for. But, the reality is that waiting for something. for anything. for a big thing. for little thing. makes me go crazy.
It appears. however. that this is the season the Husband and I find ourselves right smack dab in the middle of it. Funny how God works in that way. My patience in this season is being tested. Majorly.
Somedays I'm failing.
Somedays I'm barely hanging on.
Somedays a glimmer of an answer comes through...
...only to find the next day I'm right back in the waiting season.
Do you ever have this fight with yourself?
It's a fight against an ache for an immediate answer.
An immediate relief.
An immediate response.
An immediate paycheque.
An immediate encouragement.
An immediate answer to prayer.
It's a fight that makes me doubt the provision of a faithful God. I hate this.
It's a fight that makes me want to give up.
It's a fight that tempts me to want to ask the Husband to give up his dreams and passions.
It's an unfair fight.
Patience. come find me.
Apparently I've started checking your blog regularly! It provides me with a few minutes of happy escapism from whatever else I'm doing. Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteI can only guess what this blog post is implying... without being too indiscrete, I will just say that I know how you feel, but in situations like these, waiting is not such a bad thing. Being patient now can really help you avoid stress in the future. And once you have what you want, it won't go away, and this season you're now in will be a very fond memory. This from one very impatient person to another, comes from my personal experience :)
Caroline
ps: you don't mind me responding do you? I know we haven't really kept in touch, and I have a hard time knowing what is appropriate or not in blog world. but whatever I say is out of love and in reminiscence of our friendship of old :)