sometimes i need a little nothingness.

Photo Cred: the lovely Mikaela at Mikaela Ruth Photography

i'm feeling writer's block today. actually i've been feeling writer's block the last week or two. my mind has been occupied with...well...oh stuff. some important. some not. but it's been pulling me away from any motivation to write. 
but here i sit. 
feeling the need to communicate. communicate something. communicate anything really. 
but nothing. and you know what. 

nothing is ok. 

for today at least.

i need a nothing day. 

so that's what i have to offer. 

nothing.

today, i'm gonna enjoy nothingness which is exactly what my mind, body, and spirit is yearning for.
nothingness, filled with a whole lot of me time. a couch. maybe a movie. maybe a quite hour at a coffee shop. some shopping. thrifting. maybe more coffee. a nap. and then a quite dinner with my favorite person ever, the Husband {which of course I will not make because it's a nothing day. um. who am i kidding. i rarely make dinners even on something days}.

happy nothing friday to you my friends. i hope you get to enjoy a day of nothing soon enough too.

xox 

planes. you're just one bundle of awkward.

why is it that things which excited me when i was young have lost their appeal upon aging? take flying for instance. i used to love it. loved the packing. loved the airports. loved the coziness of airplanes. loved airplane food {crazy. right?}. loved take off. loved landing. loved it all.

now?

no thanks. no thanks to all of it.
the airport now just makes me sick. packing is tiresome and stressful. coziness of airplanes are now one bundle of awkwardness. airplane food? need i really comment? take offs are terrifying. and landing is just as terrifying. i'm over the whole thing.

Evidence of awkward flying:
ONE. No sir. I really don't want to talk to you the whole way to detroit. i'd prefer to read. you don't seem to care though.
TWO. the smells of a collective body of persons. body odors. gas. breath. just ew.
THREE. who's armrest is this anyways? yours? mine? we clearly can't share. and i'm not too sure i like always bumping elbows.
FOUR. sorry. yes. that is my bum in your face.
FIVE. don't mind me leaning over your shoulder. the teeny tiny window demands it.
SIX. bathroom breaks. the departure. the waiting in line. the way too small space. it's all ripe for awkward.
SEVEN. sleeping. the unknown of where my head will end up in the close proximity of strangers.
EIGHT. oh hi stranger. i know i'm practically in your lap but the woman's massive hair in front of me is blocking the view of the tiniest tv ever.
NINE. my bag would like to say hi to you. to your knee. to your face. to your shoulder. to your foot.
TEN. bending over in your seat to get anything out of your bag. really? seriously? where do you put your head. between your own legs {ouch}. or on the knee of your neighbours. neither a good option.

point proven. flying is one big awkward bundle. but then again. who'da thunk 100 years back we'd be capable of flying in jet powered hunks of steel with our own tvs. it's all in perspective i guess.

Flo-rida...here I come.

this white little canadian girl is florida bound. off to find sun. pools. shorts. flip flops. and some amazing gospel minded speakers. so super duper very excited!

Currently.

alright, friends. i thought it was time for another currently post. so lucky you, that's what you get.


obsessing over: my new journal. it's mint. it's pretty. it has soft pages and many open spaces to write. sometimes i just stare at my journal without writing in it. it's that purdy.

working on: living a life of just BEING. not worrying about the perfect little details. being content with a messy house. being happy and joyful in a season of "what ifs". being ok with not always having what i want when i want...hard stuff.

thinking about: the Husband. missing him. missing his hugs. missing his kisses. missing his words. missing his company. missing all of HIM. 5 more sleeps till my rests can once again rest on his handsome face.

anticipating: 1 sleep until 4 whole days in sunny florida. these white legs need some sun. badly. really, my whole being needs some sun.

listening to: the sing team. worship music revamped. lovin it.

eating: triscuits. um. pretty sure i could polish off a box of triscuits a day. the texture. the saltiness. the crunch. it's all.so.good.

praying for: the husband. our future. wisdom. grace. hunger & thirst for His Word. the knowledge of His love to move in our hearts & life.

wishing: tomorrow morning was right now. i'm ready for florida now. ready for shorts. sunnies. water. pool. sun. warmness on my body. wishing for it all to be right now.

and to finish it off. here's life via instagram as of currently.

happy hump day.

xoxo

there are days.

there are days when i want to exercise...but i don't, i watch a movie instead, these happen a lot.

there are days when i'm emotional, when all i need to do is cry...so i do, and calm follows.

there are days i feel inspired to be creative, and i create...but some days i don't, and i copy.

there are days i want to cook a healthy meal...but then an easy cheesy casserole wins out.

there are days when i want to cook...but i don't cause i remember it stresses me out.

there are days i want to go shopping...then i remember i have no money.

there are days i think reading would be nice...but instead i waist hours watching TV.

there are days i'm silly...so i am, and we laugh.

there are days i feel serious...so i am, and i get a lot done.

there are days when life's hard...but then come the days when I feel Him pulling me through.

there are days i like bikinis...and many more when i know they bring on self-consciousness.

there are days i need time alone...so i take 'em, and feel better.

there are days when i think i need time alone...so i take 'em, and i feel extra lonely.

there are days i forget to pray...those days are not my favorite.

there are days when i'm patient...there are probably more when i'm not.

there are days i'm so excited to be mommy...but then there are some when it terrifies me.

there are days when all i need is time with my husband...so we go on dates, and all is right in the world.

*This post was inspired by the lovely TJ over at His Little Lady. Thanks pretty lady ;)

Life amidst busy.

well that week sure did fly by. a week from the last and the weather has done a flip flip. the sun is shinng and my shades are on. all of this equals a much happier lady.

and, sorry for being mia {with no notice at that}. but after this past week i needed it. i needed a blog vacation. best friend from australia was in and we needed a day of some solid catch up time. plus there was her baby shower {ah. still can't believe she's gonna be a mama so super soon. and she'll be one cute mama at that}. then there was my dear adriana's bridal shower which me and the ladies threw. it was quite the celebration. but, needless to say, the busy week begged me to GIVE UP on GOOD of being the perfect housewife and really, truly, just BE in this week {see previous post here about this give up on good stuff}. 

cause i mean really, who cares if i forgot to make the bed a few days. and did anyone actually ever find out that the kitchen had a pile of dirty dishes in it for a few days {shhh. our secret}. and honestly, who's keeping score on how many days i wore that shirt this past week because i didn't have that extra 10 minutes in the morning to choose another. 

no one. no one cared.

not me this week, at least.

and i bet you've done it too, haven't you? let the bed rest all day in its messy state. allowed the dishes to stack. or wore the same outfit for the mere laziness that it is.

oh LIFE sometimes.

anyways, i'm back. and today i thought i'd treat ya with my first ever 'What I Wore Monday' post.

wishing you a happy sunny monday. 

i'm gonna grab a blanket and a book and lay out in the sun.  

simply delightful.

Monday + Rain = Are you kidding me?!

The wedding was perfect. Full of family and close friends. It was so THEM. So perfectly a representation of their love for each other and their support system. Wasn't she one B-E-A-U-tiful bride?

And today? Well, it's a Monday blues kind of day. Rain in June? Not a fan. Please leave and send in your ever more loved friend, Sun. Thanks for listening. Much appreciated. Anyways. Wanna hear something exciting? It's my Monday evening plans. Ready for it? It's super exciting...NOTHING. Absolutely nutta. A night in after a B.US.Y. weekend with NO plans. Well except for a visitor. She's called the Bachelorette. I promised myself I wouldn't do it again {see my previous disappointment here}. Well, I broke that promise. The guilt has yet to set in.
Happy Monday friends!

xox

It's a celebrating kind of day.

Today I'm celebrating this pretty lady's wedding. I've known this girl since grade 8 when we thought we were super cool with our overal jeans {they were cool. they were from Bootleggar. nuff said}. There are few girls I can speak so openly and honest with. This girl is one of those rare finds. You can't trade those long standing friendships for anything in this world.

Nikki Stix, I love ya girl.
Brad, you're one lucky guy.

So happy for you two and looking forward to celebrating your covenant of love today.
Let the celebrating begin!

xox