The thing is...I can't decide whether I like Valentines or not. I'd prefer to say the later. But I think I side with the former.
Don't get ahead of yourself. I'm not against the romantic thought of taking one day and expressing it in over the top ways of wooing one another...no wait. That precisely IS what I'm against. At least I uuuhhh think I'm against it {insert stumped face}.
oh bother.
Anyways. I think what I'm trying to say is that I want to not like it because of the consumerist approach of it. That is the thought that I have this ONE day to express and prove my love rather than seeing an opportunity to show it everyday. Cause shouldn't we always be in a state of wooing one another and not just save it all for one day? (Yah. I know. Idealist thought, right?) But kind of true. At least in principle I think.
The honest to goodness truth is that though I might have a thing against the Valentine's day hooplah, my inner girly expectations and love of all things mushy gushy and romantic will inevitably love it...and expect it.
I'm absolutely certain of the fact that against my will I'll expect flowers of some sort and a generous amount of gestures of love and affection. And I'll even want to express my love in over the top kind of ways. Because Husband deserves it. He really does.
But what will probably happen is this: I'll say, "Hunny, don't worry about the expectation of the day. I know you love me. You know I love you. Don't waist the money. It's all good. We know...we know."
And this is how that conversation will play itself out:
"Wait. What?! No flowers. No extra dosage of hugs & kisses. NO chocolate. NO flying me to Hawaii (hehe). You actually believed me?!? Of course I didn't mean it. I was just trying to sound morally above this Valentine's hooplah. You should know this, Husband. Here's your present by the way. Enjoy it won't yah," {this will, of course, involve an excessive amount of tears).
Shameful.
I know.
Hmmm. I'm confused. Am I overreacting? Possibly. But I think I'm on to something here. I mean Husband deserves to know how much I love him every day! Everyday he should know that I see him as a blessing. It shouldn't just fall on this one particular day for him to know this. And vice versa.
Either way. I'm thinking it'll be a low key valentines this year.
Just me & husband.
Annnd maybe a flower or two if I'm lucky.
Sneek peak of our Birthday Date!
Hey Bonny!
ReplyDeleteI just discovered your blog through facebook (which I deleted, then weakly went back on again!) and was browsing through it. Reading this post made me laugh because it's exactly how I am! It actually made me miss you and remember very clearly how we used to always talk about our future husbands, and I thought, oh wouldn't it be nice to catch up again and talk about all this we're now going through. I remember going through this exact Valentine's thing last year..... we actually didn't do anything and I felt really annoyed about the fact that I felt obliged to do something, and about the fact that even though it's a completely consumer driven holiday, I would still be disappointed that my husband didn't surprise me with some sort of magical day that I was totally undeserving of... Agh. Yep. Marriage really makes you look hard at yourself, that's for sure. anyway, I won't ramble on. It would be nice to catch up with you sometime though... maybe skype?
Your old silly friend,
Caroline