some reflections on 6 months of marriage

Do you ever ask yourself the question...what do I have to offer?

It seems as though this question has been occupying a good portion of my thoughts as of late. Especially in regards to this here blogosphere. The joy about blogging is that you give yourself a voice. You open yourself up to be heard. But, I wonder...

...what are you hearing?

If I could wish one thought on how I'd like to be heard...this would be it.

I am a broken person in need of Grace.

and.

I am entirely, extravagantly, and exclusively in love with my Husband.

For the sake of it being our 6 month anniversary {6 months baby!!} I'll focus on the latter in this post.

Marriage has been a fixed point of an awareness of the need for grace. And for this, and for Adam, I feel entirely blessed. This man that God has given to me has shown me more grace that I could ever deserve. He has, in 6 months of marriage, shown to me a picture of what a Christ-like grace is.

And because of this...

 I want this man to know, feel, and experience my love. I want the world to see this love. I want it to be so evident, to him, to our children, to God, and to everyone else. Sometimes, when I pause, when I really pause, I look at this man beside me and I'm struck by his heart. There is none like him. How did I become so lucky? And how, in the busyness of life, have I allowed myself to skim over this.

Often I pray that I would always, forever, see Adam for who he is and love him deeply in the midst of it. Often I pray that God would give me wisdom, strength, and ability to creatively, boldly, and consistently show Adam how much I love, respect, and adore him. Often I pray that I would never, not for one day, forget what he means to me. I believe it to be the case that God has given me this man as a gift, and a responsibility, to love and to care for. I believe it to be the case that God has given us this marriage in order that it could look like a glimpse of Christ's love for His bride. What a rich love. What a rich responsibility.

So.
Today, on this occasion, this is my prayer for my Husband.

That he would know deeply know how much I value, respect, and appreciate who he is. 

That he would know deeply how much he is loved by God. 

That he would be found to be rich with grace.

That he would know and use the gifts that God has given him for His glory.

That he would know I believe in him.

That he would know I trust my life & future into his care.

That he would know I trust the life our future family into his care.

That I love the way he loves God.

That I love the way he rests in His grace.

That he would know me to be his greatest cheerleader in life. 

Cause I am.

I love you, babe.

So, there it is. If I had my wish, especially today, this is what I would want you to hear in this blog. By no means am I prefect in it. Far from. But this is the heart beat of my imperfection. And that's gotta count for something.

xoxo